Government Class

I'm currently in AP Gov working with my group on a project we have to do for the rest of the year. We have 4 debates coming up. How exciting! I haven't blogged in so long. It's close to almost a month already. JEEZ! I'm missing some assignments for my Senior Quest. I'm close to failing government, but I am determined to bring my grade up to a C+ at least. April 25th was RHS and WCHS' prom that I knew of. I went to UCR for the Highlander Day event this day, too. I met up with Kristine Porte, my future dormmate at UCR. (: The campus was a lot bigger than I thought. I took a lot of pamphlets and papers to read at home. We took a tour of our dorm. I'm glad I chose EastLo. (: After, I went to go pick up my prom dress from Linda's. I haven't seen her in forever! After, I went to the movies and prom. FUNZIES (: The week after, I basically studied and studied for the upcoming AP tests. I went on a field trip with Lionetttes to RHS for our performance. I forgot a lot of the words to the German song. =X Andy and Viet stopped by to visit me which was really sweet. We got "Superior" as our grading, which was pretty awesome. I finally bought my prom ticket :D April 30th was the official Senior Ditch Day, but I chose not to ditch because I found that it was pointless to ditch and go to the movies, something that I could do after school or on the weekend. LAME. On May 2, I had to go to temple to help set up for Buddha's birthday. What a tiring day! I went to eat Chicken Hainam at this Vietnamese restaurant near the CVS near New and Valley. YUMMAYYY! Then I went to temple to make a bunch of lotus' and OMG, it took me an hour to make just one. I hung out with Andrew, Derek, Andy, and Jonathan afterwards. We had adventures at K-Mart, San Gabriel Superstore, and Wal Mart. (: They're such little kids, I swear! I went to Orange County afterwards with my dad to visit my grandmother. She does NOT look Vietnamese anymore. She looks more like..white and Indian to me. =X I didn't come home until 12. I woke up the next day, which was Sunday, at 8am. I got ready and left the house at 9:30 to get food. I went to get the Lexus washed. I was supposed to be at temple at 10, but I didn't get there until 10:45 because the car wash took longer than I thought. I left Le Phat Dan early to go to Katie's baby shower. I ate steak, chips & dip, and bunch of candies. I left home early to study for the AP Gov test which was the next day. I went to go play pool at Henry's with Minh, Daren, and Luis. It was pretty fun! It was my first time playing and I won Minh and Daren. I haven't played Henry and Luis yet. I thought the test was easier than I thought, but the FRQ's killed me. ): Prom is coming up this Saturday. I'm way excited. YAY! I haven't had access to the internet for a good week. I'm dying! The only way to contact me now is through text messages and phone calls. I check my email every single day in Physiology. )': The SBC Yahoo guy better come on Monday like he told my brother he would. Sigh. So much DRAMA! I'll vent when I get my internet back. BLEH. IMY.

Vent!

It is time for me to vent. I've been quite upset for the past few days. I have several reasons why I have been upset. It's mainly about friends, an ex-boyfriend, prom, and the future. Let's start off with friends.

I feel that some of my friends have chosen their significant others over friends. I know some of them don't mean to, but sometimes, things are just placed that way. I was pretty upset over the fact that anyone would choose their boyfriend/girlfriend over a friend they have known for what seems a long time. It's been bugging me for a while. I just never spoke up about it until now...and possibly in my last few blogs. This is just me trying to make people realize something. Just think about who is going to be there for you in the end. Yes, I understand that some friendships don't last forever and I understand friendships drift at times. Even though some of my friends and I have drifted, I still manage to assure them from time to time that I'm still there for them and that I'm there for them no matter what and until the very end.

I also have another friend that I personally think is trying to cause drama for the whole darn world. I believe this person is upset that some things are going to come back to normal and that a friendship may slowly drift once more. I personally think you're not over it. I wasn't speaking to them and you just happened to temporarily replace me. Now that we are back on track and working slowly towards the growth of our friendship's strenth and due to you being total BFFLs with them, you know that this was bound to happen and you don't want it to go back to normal. You like the way it is now because you're needed by them. You're being used. I'm sorry. I wasn't there for the person and the person even told me that they only spoke to you because no one else would talk to them. Well, accept the fact that it's going back to normal to how the way things were.

I'm hoping LNPRN is heading back to how things were between all three of us. I missed us SO much, it's not even funny. I miss the stupidest moments we had. I miss walking to 6th period with each other. I miss our random adventures to Target. I miss all the things we did during Winter Break. Dang, we went through a lot, no lie. We were like this *crosses fingers. Now we're going to get back on track.

With prom, I'm upset that my friend and I went through a lot just to convince another friend to go to prom. Her boyfriend's in the airforce and she refused to go to prom if it's not with him. My friend and I worked our magic, went through all the trouble of calling recruiters on how to help the friend's boyfriend come home that weekend for prom. It's all going to work out just as long as he pays for his ticket, gets the guestpass signed, and the copy of his ID, too. I did NOT go through all the hassle of calling recruiters and shit just so I can have her back out on me at last minute. -__- I hate that bullcrap. I hate having things changed at last minute. I hate how some people are just so indecisive and CAN'T MAKE UP THEIR MIND ON WHAT THE FUCK THEY WANT ('naw what I mean, jellybean?!?!?) Whatever, it's her night, she can do whatever she wants with it. Her mother did not just spend time on making her the prom dress either. I just really wanted a night where all of us were finally together celebrating our long lasting friendship and whatever the hell we went through with each other our senior year. It's our SENIOR PROM, for goodness sake. Who cares if we already had the prom experience? Let's all experience our last prom together. We all have different dates. I mean, yeah, there's always Aloha, but are we all going to be there together at Aloha? I don't know. Whatever, my point being is, I really want us to all together at prom, or I will regret going to prom.

College scares me. The expenses scare me. The experience is going to scare me just as well. I'm not sure if I'm ready to head out to the real world yet.

Now the ex-boyfriend. Yes, readers, I'm not over him yet. Jeez, cut me some slack, will you? I miss the guy, I really do. We went through a lot, no lie. He's the P to my LNPRN. He's MY cutayyy and I'm his cutaayyy. I miss him terribly and so much that it hurts. I cried myself to sleep last night. I was looking through all the pictures I've taken with him and it just made me reminisce back on how things were back just a few months ago. We had a really tight and great relationship, but apparently he wasn't ready for a serious one. Now he's with a little sophomore. I'm pissed off at the fact that we were still flirting and holding hands and kissing or whatever and whatnot about a month and a half after the breakup and he jumps into a relationship a week after displaying affection to me. I don't understand this boy. We all know that he doesn't know what he wants. He's not even taking his current girlfriend seriously. I'm also mad at how he's putting up a total front and making it seem like she is THE best girlfriend in the world, when he's not taking her seriously. I may sound jealous, but why the HELL would I be jealous of a little sophomore? She has my sloppy seconds. Whatever. My point is, I miss the guy. I was doing so well for that month I wasn't friends with him, but that letter he wrote to me...it really got to me. I just don't like how he had changed so drastically. It's not the Luis Avila that I know. The Luis Avila that I see right now has a nasty personality and selfish attitude. What happened to that sweet guy that I fell in love with? What happened to guy I gave my only PHANtastic hugs to? I want THAT Luis back. He doesn't realize he's changed. I don't know what to do. It's hard to let go of someone you fell hard for. It wasn't supposed to be like this. :/ I'll finish up tomorrow or something. I'm getting teary-eyed and sleepy. [1:30AM]

11:53PM

Hello blogspot readers. I'm very tired at the moment, but I feel like I should do an update blog and then a venting blog. On Wednesday, I went to the Beach Supermarket in San Gabriel to buy tomatoes, lettuce, and Cookie & Cream ice cream. I had to slice tomatoes for the barbecue and peel the lettuce, too. We were having a barbecue. This wasn't supposed to be an A Cappella event, but majority of the people that went were from A Cappella. Funny thing, ain't it? First thing I did was get on the swings with Crystal and we gossipped, bonded, and chit-chatted. The grill starting and I was hungry. It was a pretty windy and beautiful day at Legg Lake. I had fun. (: I played volleyball, sang songs, played on the lake's playground. I felt like I was a little kid all over again. I screamed with Wendy. There was a teensy little bit of drama, but I was not involved. We played Spin the Bottle Truth or Dare. That was a very interesting game, I'll tell you. (: I ended up walking to Crystal's and waited for Wendy's mother to take me home. I came home and probably ate some more and slept. The next day, I went corsage shopping with Vi Lam. First we went to the shop on Valley towards San Gabriel. Their corsages/boutonnieres were really nice. It was very similar to the one I got for SVHS' prom last year. She was going to charge me $35 for 3 roses and the boutonniere. For 2 roses, it was $25. I told her I'm going to go talk to my date about it and come back another time. After, we went to Jack in the Box because I was craving curly fries and she wanted to drink soda. We headed out to Las Tunas afterwards to look for Flower Mart. Their corsages were SO expensive, but extremely pretty. I couldn't afford it, so I headed out to Kim's Florist in Alhambra. My brother's girlfriend referred me to her, so I decided to check it out. The corsages there were pretty legit and cheap, too. I didn't realize that because I added orchids onto my corsage, it would cost that much more. The total was around $45 dollars. I have 3 roses and 3-5 orchids. My corsage is going to look very pretty this year unlike that piece of crap I had for EMHS' prom last year. After, I went home and helped around the house and slept like always. Today, I tried sleeping in, but failed because I kept getting prankcalled. I had Omana's for brunch with Miranda while we gossipped. Later on, I walked with Wendy to McDonald's and we discussed the reuniting LNPRN[triotriotrio]. We were talking about other plans for the rest of Spring Break. We saw Griselda and David, so we stopped and chitchatted for a bit. I came home, ate some more, and was glued to the computer for a good few hours. It wasn't that much of an interesting day. Now time to vent!

An Interesting Read

Don't think in terms of forever. Think of now, and
forever will take care of itself.

Grow up together, constantly.

Expect to invest a great deal of time and energy
in your relationship. Lasting relationships don't just
happen, they are created.

Recognize that all relationships cannot be forever.
Recognize their temporary quality, but continue to
act as if they are permanent.

Respect the other person's relationships apart
from you. If they are important to the one
you care about, they should
be important to you.

Never idealize others. They will never live up to
your expectations.

Take your time.

Remove price tags from people. Everyone has
worth; the excitement lies in the discovery of their value.
Don't be afraid of giving. You can never give too
much, if you're giving willingly.

Don't feel as if you are required to spend every
waking hour with those you love. Move aside from
time to time and allow them a separate space too.

Never force anyone to do anything for you in the
name of love. Love is not to bargained for.
Don't be afraid.

Don't overanalyze your relationships.

Realize that you always have choices. It's up to
you.

Remember that a relationship is a pooling of
resources. It means that with each relationship
you are not only giving, but you are becoming more.

Don't allow relationships to burden your heart;
rather use it to become more aware and sensitive.

Don't smother each other. No one can grow in
shade.

Don't lose in touch with the craziness in you.
This, with a large dose of caring, will assure
that your relationship will never be boring.

Don't brood. Get on with living and loving. You
don't have forever.

Don't hold on to anger. they steal your energy and
keep you from love.

There are times when you want to give up on a
relationship but never give up on relating.

Learn to listen. You don't learn anything from
hearing yourself talk.

Expect what is reasonable, not what is perfect.

Write down all the reasons why you love each
person you relate with.

Then, when the going gets tough, take the list out
and reread it. It resolves problems quickly.

After an argument is over, forget it.
Don't become involved in pettiness, ego and
childish hurts. Those will only serve to degrade
your relationship and prevent closeness.

Learn to bend. It's better than breaking.

Since love can be created, there is no reason to
be loveless.

Even though you are only half of a relationship,
you must remain a whole person, apart from the relationship.

Remember that moral and spiritual values don't
restrict, they protect.

Don't fall in love with love, you'll die with its
complexities.

Don't allow your relationships to die of neglect

Random Blog

This is a random blog. I'm currently watching the Phantom of the Opera on YouTube. I love this movie, like you don't even know. I didn't know who the Phantom was, so I googled up the movie information. The guy who acts as the Phantom is named Gerard Butler. I wondered what other movies he was in and apparently he was in P.S. I Love You and 300. I didn't know he was King Leonidas in 300 so I searched up his picture and I started laughing. I don't know why, but I found it amusing. Hahaha. I'll continue later.

Continued....
I went to Jessica's house earlier today. We watched the movie "Crybaby" and ate ice cream. Yum! Lamp Post failed! Our plans for spring break haven't gone through. I've had a few friends that might not come through because they might choose to hang out with their significant other than friends. I don't understand why they can't just INCLUDE their significant others with us. -__- Anyway, I just wanted to put this out there that I hate how sometimes, friends would choose their significant others over their friends. I don't get it sometimes. I know you don't planning on marrying the person, or maybe you are, but dude...who the hell is going to be there for you in the end? Honestly, friends are going to be there for you in the end, am I right? So why do you neglect your friends when you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? What, you can't balance it out? I just don't get it. Personally, I don't even do that. I know when to balance spending time with a significant other and friends. I usually put them together or have my friends' or girls' night out and then time alone with whomever my boyfriend is. SIGH! Friends are far more important in my life. I'm sorry but it's family, friends, and then significant others. I got priorities, man. I realized I have a few selfish friends. Bummer. Maybe if you read this, you'll understand the neglect you cause me to feel along with others. Maybe I'm the one that cares enough or just too much to actually notice. I should stop caring. I don't know. I hope you would one day get a chance to read any of my blogs and understand. :/